i remembered something, but now i forgotten about it.
2 nights in a row i dreamt of the same thing, same person, similar incident.
when you thought you had walk away, clean and started afresh, anew from the past. it just comes back and haunt you time to time.
weird feeling it is.
darwin
奇跡見えない。
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
midterms are really screwed up.
sometimes i really think im superstitious. am i? all the classes i take with people i tend to screw them up badly, but the classes i took myself always turned out better than expected. i wonder why is that the case.
today i really feel so unlucky, i don't want to talk about it
tomorrow is midterm and all im thinking is how to relax and have fun. and i really hate to look at the bank account, it amazes me like how much money i waste on food ( rather than something that i can use ). i should save money, plus im quitting my job, thus i feel really really bad about spending extra cash.
think im going to sf soon, which means im going to spend more money. think maybe i should stay there just for a while or something instead of spending too much time there. being in SF means spending more money and i really think its f-up! if i do spend like $200 there im so going to kill myself since airticket alone already cost like what? half the price. no wonder home is the place they say you save the most money. hopefully, its true.
so much things on my mind, i often can't really get myself to study. this blog has become so isolated from people, ( wait wait im not asking for readers ) but sometimes i do feel like as time goes along, people just fade away from you like how people fade away from this blog. perhaps its good this way i can just type all i want and i can rant and rant without people having to listen to me and get hurt and upset or anything.
i really want to suceed in life, but taking a shortcut to it. they say there isnt a shortcut in life, i do believe there is one, but you must learn how to make one for yourself, be daring enough to take it and with some luck you might just have the same result as other people. they go in circles, you go in circle.
whatever it is, i dont believe my luck is so wretched, i dont believe that my life is always going to be on a downfall. i'll show you how lucky i am, especially to those people who wants my life to get worse, mothafuckers.
darwin
奇跡見えない。
Monday, August 20, 2007
i realized i got this funny disease that when i watch some drama that is damn exciting, i feel damn good when i start screaming like YES YES that kinda stuff.
okay call me crazy.
being all alone for summer is definitely very different, in fact its my first lonely summer. not that i hate it or i enjoy it but summer is definitely the season that reminded me of...ahem. forget it.
i missed school today, and after so much kimcheee, im tummy really really hurts. i wish someone would send me letters or something. now my mailbox is flooded, like really really flooded with unecessary stuff, such as bills. and oh ya, its been a year since im in sandiego. its really really really fast. believe it, its been a year.
darwin
奇跡見えない。
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
i thought summer was going to be fun. i was dead wrong.
darwin
奇跡見えない。
Monday, August 06, 2007
jeff, im so so so so sorry! i know you wont be reading this but im sorry anyway.
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i love my bed. cause the bed is big and spacy, the bedcover is lightblue and my futon cover is nice and i got softtoys( gay) to accompany me plus the my bed is made in america and its fireproof.